-i am hollow within-

2008-09-07T10:36:00.003+08:00

...this shall be the last of this kind of posts...

i have finally made a full decision

i feel happy, i feel sad

i feel clear, i feel confused

i feel justified, i feel mean

...i am sorry...

...good luck...

2008-08-14T22:07:00.002+08:00

i hate "them". they suck. suckier than i thought they were, don't know how to describe them anymore. they taint such a long history just because of JCT.. wad the hell is this all about man.. suck suck suck.. (i shall not use vulgarities).. people can't just judge because of one event that occur. would they like it, if we judge just because they did something? YOU HAVE TO SEE BOTH PERSPECTIVE DAMN IT, i thought adults know this.. what the shyt?.. don't know what to say man.. no point in saying also.. we shall just treasure the term more..

"the book" is going to be thin compared to the previous 31 copies.. but it will be the most exciting one

2008-08-11T11:09:00.000+08:00

i hope that the rose has not wilted and died yet...

2008-08-09T09:31:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

try it at http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2008-08-01T20:59:00.002+08:00

what is a friend?
dictionary: one attached to another by affection or esteem
my thoughts: one who is there for you when you need them, but at other times, you take them for granted

what is a friendship?
dictionary: the state of being friends
my thoughts: an affinity that you share with another human being, a relationship that is often forgotten as important. pessimistically you can look at it as a string hold on tightly by two people, and a little force will just break the string.. something you will really need to treasure...

what is sorry?
dictionary: feeling sorrow, regret, or penitence
my thoughts: a word that is frequently used as a way to force people to forgive you, or simply a word to stop an arguement.. it has lost its values...

what is pretense?
dictionary: professed rather than real intention or purpose
my thoughts: a mask worn by everyone today.. you will never know who to trust and not to trust.. it has also become my "face".. i have forgotten what my true face is like

what is truth?
dictionary: the property (as of a statement) of being in accord with fact or reality
my thoughts: it is what people accept as correct and true, a way people live their lives nowadays.. something that can be changed entirely according how people want to believe

what is human?
dictionary: a bipedal primate mammal
my thoughts: something that have to adapt to its surrounding and survive no matter how harsh situation may change sometimes.. some changes are inevitable...

2008-07-31T22:45:00.001+08:00

i know i shouldn't have tested you.. but sorry.. I don't know why.. I just did it.. haha... oh well.. its my weakness maybe.. the liking to test people... or person...

2008-07-30T22:38:00.002+08:00

9 . 12 9 11 5 . 25 15 21

9 . 4 15 14 20 . 23 1 14 20 . 20 15 . 3 1 21 19 5 . 1 14 25. 13 9 19 5 18 25

9 . 4 15 14 20 . 23 1 14 20 . 20 15 . 2 5 . 1 . 10 25 14 24

9 . 23 1 14 20 5 4 . 20 15 . 1 19 11 . 25 15 21

2 21 20 . 9 . 23 9 12 12 . 14 5 22 5 18 . 2 5 . 7 15 15 4 . 5 14 15 21 7 8 . 6 15 18 . 25 15 21

4 15 . 25 15 21 . 12 9 11 5 . 13 5 ?

2008-07-29T22:07:00.000+08:00

I thought it's gonna be a good day tomorrow...

but.. sigh.. maybe the "low" still hasn't ended yet...

long way to go............................

2008-07-24T23:38:00.000+08:00

...not even there yet.. and you are already thinking too much again.. wake up lei...

sorry

2008-07-23T22:58:00.003+08:00

it started with...

now it has come to this...

this year is definitely the year of good and superhero movies man. from iron man, to the incredible hulk to prince caspian, hancock, wanted and now it's finally here. the dark knight. although it's a bit lengthy, IT IS 10/10!!! gosh.. i'm not gonna give any spoiler or anything, (since so many people complaint earlier), so my final verdict is: just watch it and be awed.

question in mind:how to be the joker? "why so serious?"

2008-07-16T20:42:00.000+08:00

You are The Sun

Happiness, Content, Joy.

The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.

Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.

The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

2008-07-16T19:56:00.002+08:00

there is always ups and downs in life. i always believe there is no such thing as a perfect day, there is also no such thing as a screwed day. it's just which perspective are you looking from. a positive perspective? or a negative perspective? how can people strike a balance of being a pessimistic and yet optimistic?

in life everyone has an identity. yet, not everyone knows what is his/her identity. how do you find your identity? is it a natural thing and you will find it as time goes by? or do you have to work for it? what is an identity? is it something that people regard you as? or it is something you feel best describes you?

relationships are a must in a person's life. humans are social beings, they say. but will a human actually die simply if he/she has no friend? how does it feel being a loner? how does it feel being in the limelight? do people who don't have friends really need to go find one?

the things that are confusing about life.. oops.. randoming in nonsensical ways again.. haha..

2008-07-04T23:02:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday!!!

happy birthday to you..

...happy birthday to you...

2008-07-02T21:56:00.002+08:00

is it what i really started as that matters? i wanted to start on a fresh page of my life.. yeah it turns out the better.. but now people cant stop looking at me as a joker.. but is a joker really the legacy that i want to leave behind? thinking back.. i have left a bad legacy back in my school.. i tried to start afresh.. yet.. i havent been able to see clearly where im going towards... will i really leave the joker legacy.. its very irritating to be treated as a joker.. yet maybe that's what i do best.........

[crown clown]....

2008-06-27T21:50:00.002+08:00

school reopens...

wow.. how time flies, JCT is finally over!!! hrm.. other than the fact that it's over.. everything else is dotz... don't know how i will fare for it... hope i PASS!!! crap.. don't wanna see ms. norsheha man.. haha.. anyways today (last paper) was maths... and oh well.. shall not say about it.. lol.. anyways.. had exco meeting only at 5 (cause wen shin had art and cheryl had bio till then).. so went for lunch after the maths paper at parkway with esti, audrey, ck and mel... didn't realise it was 4PCs vs 1pres LOL.. anyways had ajisen ramen again! like the 3rd or 4th time this month.. haha.. after the LONG lunch we walked around in parkway.. saw this book "THE FORBIDDEN KNOWLEDGE"... omg.. super funny book.. haha.. teaches you how to do all the bo liao stuff inside.. i shall buy it soon LOL!! oh well.. still going to have a GM tomorrow.. shall go off.. haha

2008-06-21T16:57:00.007+08:00

The Incredible Hulk

Get Ready to Unleash The Beast

plot:

'The Incredible Hulk' tells the story of Dr Bruce Banner (Edward Norton), who seeks a cure to his unique condition, which causes him to turn into The Hulk under emotional stress. Whilst on the run from military which seeks his capture, Banner comes close to a cure. But all is lost when a new creature emerges; The Abomination (Tim Roth)

rating: 9/10 (MUST WATCH)

This is yet another nice movie I have watched (in the cinema) recently, from Iron Man to Chronicles of Narnia - Prince Caspian, and finally The Incredible Hulk. You may say I've overrated this movie, but I felt that it's damn damn damn good compared to the earlier Hulk (2003) directed by Ang Lee. This one packs more realistic details (the Hulk's pants, destruction IN New York rather than him just jumping around in some hell dessert). The Incredible Hulk also jumps straight in to fights, battles, and actions. No more long story how it all began, just a simple flashback and BAM! it's clobbering time. The good parts of the movies would be all the fighting scenes, be awed by the might of the Hulk. And of course not forgetting the best part when The Hulk clashes with The Abomination. Look at 2 giants crushing each other.. simply incredible.. =)

some "interesting" facts about The Hulk

- The Hulk was originally grey in colour, but due to printing problems in the first few comics, he came out green instead. (they just decided to continue in green)

- The Hulk's strength (in the comics) is limitless, it is affected directly by his emotion, especially anger. Thus the expression, the angrier The Hulk, the stronger he is

- Due to this fact, The Abomination is actually nothing compared to The Hulk, as it's not able to increase his strength through its emotions

- The Hulk is one of the founding members of the Avengers / the Ultimates

- In the Avengers, The Hulk left the team, and was indirectly replaced by Captain America, as he was afraid of hurting his fellow team mates

- In the Ultimates, Banner (The Hulk) was invited to the team to invent another super soldier serum that created Captain America. However due to failures, Banner inject himself instead with the Hulk-serum, turning him into the ever dangerous Hulk. He was later punished to death (but survived)

- In the movie, Banner was not able to control himself as the Hulk, due to the unleashing of his anger

- In the game, Banner and The Hulk is two entirely different characters and personalities. The Hulk takes over control once Banner transformed into it

- However, in both version, although the Hulk is thought to be dangerous, it's actually doing good stuff.. LOL

2008-06-14T22:48:00.004+08:00

Sweeney Todd
The Demon Barber of the Fleet Street

vengeance.never forget.never forgive

the story of a man, who has lost his wife and daughter. he seeks revenge on the one who caused his misery. the man was a fine barber. the lost was too much for him to handle. greater lost he felt, as he lost he chance of killing the one. he turn into a demon. a demon who see everyone, everything as his victim.

straight razor was his weapon. shaving was his skill. throat was his bulls eye. innocent and unknowing victims feel relaxed on the seat. not knowing that they are about to meet their doom. the demon slits. the demon step on the pedal. the demon send them down to the oven. his minion bake them. his minion makes them into meat pies.

sharpen. sharpen. sharpen. and go for the kill. that's all that the demon had in his mind

finale. he slit the throat of the one who turned him into this demon. the throat of his lackey. the throat of his long lost wife. the throat of the one who loves him. and a boy slit his.

benjamin barker. sweeney todd
demon barber of the fleet street
beware the next time you go for a shave

2008-06-12T21:36:00.002+08:00

as time passes, everything seems to fade away..

if a thing has 86400 parts to it,

every second, a part of it fades away,

every minute, 60 parts of it fade away,

every hour, 3600 parts of it fade away,

it only takes a day to fade away completely..

and people are complaining there's not enough time in the world..

crap.. don't even understand wad e heck is this

2008-06-09T22:23:00.002+08:00

oh well.. it's hurtful.. but i guess.. what i did back a few days ago.. just turn back and hit me too... i gain something here... i lose something there.. i guess i am really that irritating, and just don't know when to stop... sorry to all those whom i have offended again and again...

haha.. i felt like posting this... i have lost too many things and friends to be able to recover them back...

i guess i have just lost you.. we are barely friends nowadays.. shouting at each other, just because of the slightest things... is that even what friends are supposed to be like... i guess you are back to leading your normal and happy life.. and that's because i haven't been in touch with you for some time?.. haha.. good luck and take care...

starting a journey of my own.. in this "foreign place"...

2008-06-08T17:55:00.003+08:00

GESS SL camp and handover day!!

wow.. this week has been a blast.. with all the strengthquest workshop, PC day, alvin-leon's birthday party, and it has come down to GESS SL camp and handover day!!! haha

1st day of GESS SL camp,
this is the stating day of the camp, too bad i arrived late at school and miss their mission impossible activity. basically its a mini-game to get the campers assorted into groups rather than just telling them what groups are they in.. next they had a little icebreaker cum bonding, in which all the groups created their group name, group flag, and group cheers. there were 4 groups; sunny side up, d24, blue storm and spartans! haha how creative they can be. i especially like the name spartans and their group cheers. it goes like, "who are we? spartans spartans spartans! spartans wad? ough ough ough!" so barbarian i know HAHA, but its cool! anyways the major activity today was amazing race.. so many things happen during the amazing race and oh my THEIR GAMES ARE SUPER CREATIVE, i felt so undermined when i compare my first camp with this camp.. haha.. anyways they met up with a few problems also.. getting chased out of borders and safra! LOL.. then they went for dinner and had night activities which is quite good as well i feel.. lights out at around 0000! had a debrief for the OC (organising committee) and had a long long chat with my friend whom i havent seen for a while haha =)

2nd day of GESS SL camp
today is the day that all the SLs have been waiting for, their destination is: Sarimbun Scouts Camp!! haha... of course in the morning we had a little pt both for the OC and the campers haha and of course OC's pt was handled by hoong leong and i got a little share of it =P haha.. after the pt was breakfast before setting off for SSC! once they reached SSC, the SLs got divided into 3 groups and they went for the various activities planned by innotrek for them, of which there were 3 major activities: rafting, rock climbing and challenge valley!! too bad i didn't get to participate cos i didn't wanna get dirty HAHA! orh there were also 3 scouts who went to SSC to be tested by hoong leong for their cook test, and of course i get to eat the stuff they cook, although not the most hygienic food around, it sure is delicious =) too bad there was an accident and one of the SL got hit in the nose by the raft, so hoong leong and me quickly sent her to NUH to get it checked.. yup.. anyway after that the SLs went to kranji dam for their night trail.. omg.. the night trail is so damn COOL! it was inside the forest nearby the dam, and as there were canopies, the whole place is just so damn dark, you don't know what's lurking nearby!!! haha.. after the night trail, SLs went back to school, and i carried out my little activity for them, to impress upon them the role of a student leader.. yup hope you guys still remember the lesson that i carried out =) slept at 330 after a long evaluation with the OC

3rd day of SL Camp, and handover day!
today's the handover day for us 32nd tj sc, so i didn't stay in gess anymore and went for the handover day. went to sentosa for the morning activities.. and the 2 activities that we play is crazy.. first task for us was to build a TALL structure, using whatever material we can find.. in the end my group lost and we were smeared hair gel, especially me, cos my face was full of gell even on my nose! darn.. second activity WAS GROSS!!! we had to roll down the beach and get a mouthful of the seawater before rolling back up to transfer it into a 1.5l water bottle! OMG.. damn disgusting can.. anyway in the end both group had the chance to splash one another with the water collected YUCK!!! by the end of this activity, it had started raining, and we wasted around 2hours waiting for the rain to subside.. then went for lunch before going back to tj at 3pm.. once we were in school, we had a task to find 36 locker knobs ALL over the school, we managed to find them all within 2hours.. next we had to do 32 SETS of push up in front of the TJC school crest, to represent the 32nd willingness to serve the school with humility, each push up's count must be spelled out, ie for the first push up we need to do 3 push up as there are 3 letters "O-N-E" we finished it at 6pm before moving on to our next task to find a few items regarding the few posts in SC that were hidden again all over the school.. we finished within an hour and we got our final task, to find the president's key.. it was quite easy because we found it within 10 minutes!!! haha.. we played a little game before going into the council room, which will become ours AND DAMN!!!! WE GOT TRICKED WHEN WE WENT IN, AND THE ROOM STINKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG.. did a quick clean up as much as possible, and i went off at 9.30...

WHAT A TIRING WEEKEND!!!! haha....

to my best friend: hey! hope we have cleared all our misunderstanding, and we can get closer! =) anyway i really missed the SLs once i went to harbourfront.. haha.. I really felt i have become the SL family, and of course will continue to help them grow!!=)

to OC of GESS SL CAMP: GREAT JOB GUYS!! I envy you all for the fact that you all could work as a team, and you guys handled problems readily and of course improved over the days! KEEP UP THE GOOD JOB and hope you all learn something from this camp!!! =)

to cadence: hey! thanks for the wonderful thumbdrive and strap that you gave me, also thanks for the nice locker design of a beach! haha I LIKE MY BIG BIG BIG and OUTSTANDING name there =) THANK YOU!!! and good luck for JCT! =)

2008-06-04T22:42:00.003+08:00

staff day meeting 1 & alvin and leon's birthday party!!! =)

it was the first staff day comm 2008 meeting today! haha, all i can say is, thanks to all my fellow committee members! although we were late, we finished on time!! which means we were damn efficient!! haha THANK YOU! =) anyways, went to get alvin's and leon's birthday gifts in bugis, and i got back the swatch watch that i put for repair.. only thing i got a new one, which is of different model (cos they couldn't repair the old one!) DAMN SHYT STUPID!.. hrm!

birthday party for the birthday boys were at 7 in nydc! haha! although again i burnt my pocket, it was still damn fun! all the surprises that were in stall for alvin and leon, kudos to weiyang, jocina (sorry if i spell ur name wrongly!) and germaine!! haha anyways, bought pencil case for leon (THAT'S HIS SURVIVAL KIT FOR JCT!!! COMPLETE WITH PENS AND PENCILS!! LOL) and a pink polo tee for alvin.. haha i hope both of you like it!!! and stupid nydc.. can cut the cake but not eat it.. LOL.. wad e hell.. so we no choice but stylo and took the cake (each person take two slice) then walk out of the nydc LOL.. everyone was like looking at us lar.. haha.. anyway after that we went to starbucks to talk crap before going home.. thanks germaine again for the ride home =).. it was a fun day after all! haha!

2008-06-02T22:08:00.006+08:00

strengthquest & pc day!

hrm.. today has been the most fruitful day since last saturday (when we started participating in that STUPID NYEC).. seriously.. argh.. i shall not blog about it.. so pissed with that ass... NEVER MIND.. anyways today was the workshop for our strengthquest.. for those of you who don't know what strengthquest is.. basically its a programme where they show you what qualities/strengths you have and how to develop it.. this programme is different from other personality test as it does not show you your weakness, but only strengths. their rationale is the fact that you can go furthest when you emphasize and develop on your strengths, rather than working on your many many weaknesses.. an analogy will be the fact that it is easier to ask you to develop what is already in you rather than trying to force you to develop what you do not have in you.. yup.. so from the workshop i basically find out how the strengths can actually be interplayed with one another, and realize what i had in me: responsibility - community - relator - restorative - arranger. yup.. and i now know how to work among these 5 strengths to actually further my potential =) thank you to ms. norsheha, ms. kwan, mr. lim and mr. heng for the workshop! i'm sure the other 32nd councillors also benefited a lot from this workshop.. yup

next up is pc day! (although before this some of the 32nd councillors had a meeting with mr. tong, but shall not talk about it lar.. haha).. basically, we planned some amazing race cum hide-and-seek in esplanade, complete with a kidnapping scenario, for the seniors.. and unfortunately, cadence is chosen to be the victim.. sorry cadence! haha.. hrm.. some of the activities were quite lame, but i hope the seniors could bear with it.. ya.. anyway after that we went for dinner and icecream! and we had mini gossiping and talking crap session.. haha THANKS TO ALL PC FOR THE DAY!! IT WAS VERY ENJOYABLE =)

to the senior PCs: hope you guys and gals enjoyed the day, but honestly i felt bad for the fact that you guys and gals expected like bowling/pool/movies.. ya.. hrm.. instead making you all tired with all the activities.. i hope the dinner and dessert could compensate that.. haha.. sorry!

personal messages to all the senior PCs,
ziko: hi zik.. i have worked with you during scip as your direct junior. although we didn't really communicate much, but i thought we share the same sentiment and felt bad that we slack a lot during scip.. haha.. BUT i still gotta thank you for all the small small little things that you share with me along the way, making me more confident each day of being the vice pres for scip.. yup.. although you are not my direct senior now, you are still my senior all the same.. =) thank you!

kang yu: hi kang yu.. lol the guy who always go to one corner suddenly and starts to "emo".. haha i have to thank you for that little "lesson" that you shared with me during the scip jts.. i gained a lot of perspective of council and leadership from those things that you shared with me.. although i may not agree to everything that you say, i do agree to most things that you said.. yup.. and you remind me of my old self, where i didn't use to think so much.. haha..

ming jin: hi mj.. hrm.. you are probably the pc senior that i worked with the least, yet i need to thank you for your time off whenever i ask you details about your project, before i chose my project.. yup.. i did consider your project and staff day, but i felt safer with staff day as i have done it before and anyway the rest didn't wanna do staff day.. yup.. and i also learn quite a few things from your action plan for mardi gras, where you do it in one paper for all the 4 different locations.. so ya.. these are the little little things that i have learnt from you =)

cadence: hi cadence! haha, you are my direct senior, the best for the last! (haha.. dun be too offended hor other pcs =)) thank you for wanting to share with me a lot about staff day.. although i may not be the best available junior that you can get, i will work hard to make you proud! =).. i have learnt quite a lot from you for the fact that i was attached during mardi gras to you.. i saw the way you communicate with the performers, student helpers, tutors-in-charge, and the av crew.. these are really the people skills that i will need during my term as a project coordinator, and i hope i can learn more from you.. haha.. yup =D

to fellow 32nd PCs: wait for your turn NEXT YEAR!!! HAHA =P

2008-05-31T18:31:00.002+08:00

i am who I AM

i am NOT HIM

i am NOT ANYONE

i am ME

and you think when he said that it was very funny huh

well i can tell you in the face it wasn't

screw it

...the bad days always come after the good ones...

2008-05-30T00:28:00.006+08:00

people always say:

it is not about possessing,

it is about seeing that one is happy,

yup.. that's the way it will be then

to you: stay happy always =)

2008-05-29T00:09:00.002+08:00

nowadays it's so hard to keep focused...
i am unstable.. unstable in a way that i cannot describe..
what do i hope to achieve in the end, is a mystery...
what does destiny have in stall for me?...
destiny is said to be in one's own hands...
i want to control my own destiny...
i want to control my fate...
i want to be someone, not just anyone...
this is my aim in life...
i shall focus...

2008-05-25T22:42:00.002+08:00

i know u like him that much... its a fact that i have known since dunno how many months ago, just dun repeat it again and again.. haha... it just make me feel even more a thorn on ur side.. or even a pain in the ass...

that day u said.. u could not even decipher if i ever tell the truth or a joke?... so what is it? can you tell what im really saying is the truth?... it doesnt even matter if i gave up.. so what's the point of asking even? haha...

2008-05-25T00:22:00.002+08:00

announcement

32nd Students' Council Investiture

16th House Committees' Investiture

TJC Mardi Gras 23 May 2008

and other photos...

in my facebook!

(damn difficult to post everything on blogger)

haha

2008-05-24T21:34:00.002+08:00

again and again.. things happen... why is it always like this? i thought yesterday was a super good day... turns out i screw things up again... why am i such a failure as a friend? as a human? as a social being?... its like im a jynx always in their lives.. make their days lousier.. bring them to the lowest of their mood.. i hate it.. i hate myself.. for making history repeat again and again...

maybe i really should have no friends at all.. i dun even know how to handle my own life... much less bringing in people to my miserable life.. my friends are always there for me.. but will i ever be there for them? i always think things screw up cos its u, u, u, u and ur fault.. but i always never think back.. maybe until now, i always think of friends as just another tools...........................................

...

2008-05-24T11:01:00.003+08:00

23rd May - TJC Mardi Gras 2008!

Today is another day of the week that we have been waiting for! In the morning there was the house committees investiture! haha.. I got excused for the first 2 periods, because the SC needs to return the HC a favour for helping out in our investiture on wednesday. Anyways, after that we had a reception and got to eat some of the food yea! =)

After the investiture, I had two more lessons to go before getting dismissed to go help out in the mardi gras rehearsal. At 1230, went for lunch, and sound check for mardi gras started at around 1500-1630. The real event started at 1900! It was a total blast with the appearance of the harley davidson riders, and teachers parading down the track with the costumes. Although I didn't get to see much of this, I'm sure the people watching them was super impressed! Haha.. Anyways, if you haven't know by now, what mardi gras is all about.. It's basically a carnival/event that is celebrated by many european countries where people dress up and have fun. So, if you were there at my school yesterday, you would be able to see lots of people dressing up, as faeries, knights, soldiers, kings, apples, grapes, etc etc! haha! If you miss this year's mardi gras, be sure to look out for it in 2010! cos this event is celebrated biannually in TJC! =) you will get to see performances from the performing arts pdp in tjc, and also performances from TJCians! not only that there will also be game and food stalls! =)

P.S. will upload the photos for mardi gras next time... gotta rush for meeting now =P

2008-05-21T21:11:00.003+08:00

21st May 2008
Temasek Junior College - 32nd Students' Council Investiture

This is the day, that all the 32nd elects have been waiting for, since the day we are elected. Reminiscing back the past of campaigning, rallying, mass dance, morning meet-ups, council camp, council campfire... this is where we have come. Many may thought, this has been a long journey for us. However, those were just the prologue of this book, called "The 32nd's Council Term". It is now, the beginning the book, and we the 32nd Students' Council will be the authors of this very book, as we enter our new council term. Today is the day of our pride, the day we don our blazers, the day we receive our name tags, the day we receive our council badge, which has been passed down batch and batch of councillors, generation to generation. It will only not be the day of joy, but the day of recognition of our responsibilities, and (on a more negative tone) the day where the real scrutiny and hardship starts.

To all 32nd Councillors: Although, it may be the day where real scrutiny starts, we will get over it together as a council. Ad Alta: Each Endeavouring All Achieving. Keep this motto of our council in your mind at all times. No matter what hardships, obstacles, challenges that we may face during our council term, we will go through it as one council, one family. Let us also not forget the motto of all the Students' Council of TJC: Betterment Through Dedication. Needless to say, what we do should always be for the good of others.

This is a day, that the 31st Students' Council may or may not have been waiting for. This day marks the end of their council term. The last chapter of their very own book, "The 31st's Council Term". They have left behind a legacy for us, the 32nd Students' Council. It is a unique legacy, different from any other Students' Council batch. It is the 31st's legacy. We will bear in mind, what you have taught us, what you have shared with us as seniors. In the heart of the 32nd's Students' Council, you will never be forgotten, as once a councillor, always a councillor.

To all 31st Councillors: All I can say is thank you! Thank you for all the hard work that you have put in to groom us, to be the next batch of councillors, to continue your legacy. We will not disappoint you, and we will be a council, that is just as strong as your council, and we will serve the college with all of our heart. Thank You!

2008-05-18T22:57:00.003+08:00

...time will decide...

2008-05-18T18:28:00.002+08:00

u always take my words just for joke right? everything i do is just a joke, just a frigging crap that doesn't mean a fcuking shit to u right!

shrug off everything i say, just because you think it's not important,
hit me with everything you've got, just because you think i deserve it,
leash me like a dog and have me follow you around, just because you think it's convenient
scold me all you like, just because you are super piss with things that i say and do

but forget me, just because i don't mean a fcuking piece of crap to you
go ahead... make your stand...

ooops.. haha sorry.. just had to let off steam =P

2008-05-18T16:17:00.004+08:00

Last Week before the holidays. The week of pride, the week of fun =)

next week's going to be the week that everyone in tjc has been waiting for!!.. haha it's the last week of school!! (which means JCT IS COMING.. DAMN! =P).. it's the week of MARDI GRAS!! it's the week of the TEMASEK TITANS.. and of course.. the week of STUDENTS' COUNCIL INVESTITURE and HOUSE COMMITTEE'S INVESTITURE! it's going to be exciting.. can't wait to get my name tag and council badge.. =) haha..

anyways.. holidays coming.. but it doesn't feel like a holiday at all.. with my aunt around.. and so many stuff to do.. haha.. but i just wanna study hard for JCT too.. haha.. but i haven't set any target yet.. shyts.. i shall do so soon.. haha

it has been weird since then... i became so confused and befuddled with my surroundings... i can't really tell anymore what is the right thing to do.. it's like, i hope answers just come to me naturally.. why can't things stay the same all the time.. why does change have to play a part every time? how i wish i was still a small kid that doesn't think so much... haha...

......

2008-05-10T23:16:00.003+08:00

oblivious

i wanna be oblivious

pretend its not there

see nothing

hear nothing

say nothing

just wait, wait, wait

SENDY, WAIT FOR WHAT? LOL

just ask lar...

cannot cannot.. don't even think about it

2008-05-10T21:09:00.002+08:00

losing a friend... is what i'm good at

i'm still wondering until now,

is there no one that i can relate to out there,

is the world really a place for loners?

i thought humans are social beings?

messy messy life

yup, that's my life

friction with a friend is nothing, losing a friend is everything

2008-05-10T21:01:00.004+08:00

TJC 32nd Students' Council 1st GM =)

haha.. blogging "properly" after a long time.. haha.. anyways today is the first GM with the 32nd sc! was pretty exciting i guess as everyone would be getting their posts and portfolio.. haha.. anyways before the GM, exco had a meeting earlier to finalise a few stuff.. and distribution of committee manpower!! haha.. anyways result won't be released just yet.. so fellow scs, you guys gotta wait until wednesday =P.. haha those of you who will be with me for Project S.D. (aka project staff day LOL, YES that's what im going to call it as, sounds damn professional lar LOL) be sure to be in for fun, though im not claiming that the other projects won't be fun, but i wanna prove everyone that staff day is just as fun or more! :D MUAHAHAHA

the GM was damn long lar.. haha i think around 3 hours.. but it was quite exciting gm, so no one really got bored haha.. and we managed to get all the portfolios filled.. yup.. after the GM, i hitch a ride from jonathan (thanks jon :)) back home, before taking bus back to tiong bahru to meet with black for lunch.. haha.. then after that was the most shyt part of the day.. come back home and RUSH TO CLEAN THE HOUSE... auntie suddenly say she's coming back tonight... O.o.. haha.. anyways life's going to be back the way it was.. haha

p.s. today is seriously a twister day... or should i say mostly sucky day.. yeah.. haha..........

2008-05-08T21:22:00.002+08:00

doing something right.. is no longer what i know

having faith is important

but i have no faith at all

not in any god

not in anything i do

not in anybody

not in myself

hollow faith is all i have

no one to lean on, having faith of oneself is the key to existence

2008-05-05T21:31:00.002+08:00

what was i thinking??.. haha..

gotta stop thinking too highly of myself

to be something you gotta start from nothing

once you are something, it's just your beginning to be another nothing

it's one whole cycle

it's time for me to focus, and not think too much

what is not mine will not be mine

appreciating what one have is important

nothing is something, something is nothing

2008-04-14T21:55:00.002+08:00

things in the world.. there is always two sides to things.. but unfortunately people dun always see the two sides.. why then there is always the two sides?? haha.. why is there always positive AND negative? why is there always good AND bad? hrm...

at first people thought "it" was very good, it's like almost impossible to have that kind of achievement.. then only i realize how outside people are viewing "it" in a negative perspective... people say how can "it" change so much only over a year???

haha... although i still feel empty whenever i go to school.. without knowing it, i'm already getting very attached to this place called TJC... haha...

2008-04-08T23:00:00.004+08:00

...sands...

...hollow...

...realization?...

...enlightenment?...

...hollow...

...sorrow...

...confusion...

I have lost the meaning of life for now... when will I find it again? i lost something dearly.. something that cannot be replaced... is this it?... will i be able to continue?

the mind of a hollow sand drop..................

2008-04-02T22:08:00.002+08:00

.. last day of 32nd TJC SC nominees...

today's the last day of nomination for sc at tjc.. hrm.. it has been at least one month since i was first thrown into the seriousness of nomination.. haha.. still remember all the scoldings that we got on our first general meeting with the 31st.. since then, i believe that my fellow nominees and i have grown and come along way.. all about being united, all for one, one for all.., care for others, being selfless and keeping a lookout for one another... the aim for perfect attire during morning meetups.. all these really bring up memories... and these days come to and end today.. it is finally the results that we have been waiting for since we started our crazy campaigns..

today's going to be a happy day.. and a sad day.. it's a happy day for us who got through the nomination and finally be a part of the 32nd students' council as elects.. it's a sad day for those of us who couldnot.. it is also a sad day.. as we will part as nominees, and won't be addresed as one such group of nominees anymore.. the last day of the 32nd students' council nominees...

all i wanna say to close this post is.. it has been a hell of a ride will all of you nominees.. to most of you, it is the beginning of another journey for us as elects.. we shall look forward to council camp and also investiture.. whereas to the rest of you.. remember these memories as the 32nd students' council nominees.. you shall not be forgotten, at least, by me.. thank you and good luck for your future endeavors.. you guys and gals still can go on for other leadership posts in the college, and rest assured we will be supporting all of you... take care...

2008-04-01T23:06:00.003+08:00

I love you... I wanna be there for you.. but why can't you just take things optimistically?.. I wanna be as patient as I can be.. I really want.. I know you don't like me doing lots of things including what I just asked you tonight.. but why can't you voice out? because it's not going to change things?... I'm torn.. I'm confused... I'm messed up.. but you will always still be in my heart...

2008-03-30T14:15:00.002+08:00

i love you.. i really do... you know how hurtful it was when i see that phrase? "i forgot how to love?" why are we becoming like this.. is it so difficult to even tell each other truth? about our lives? why always hide our feelings when bottling it up will make things worse? i don't want things to turn out this way... but obviously we are not working together.. why can't we? why do you give up on things so easily? even me? all you can say is that you are unreasonable? but haven't you heard the word "change"? before?

maybe i don't give the feeling that i'm trying to change.. but i did change a lot.. was it so hard to see the change in me? i gave you my words then when i go on to jc, i will stay faithful, but did you bother about the promise that i made? you still feel insecure anyway... you say it's ok, i can concentrate in my council stuff first, but in the end, "i am not there for you.."

when you see this post, you may straight away realise that it's directed to you, but what will your respond be? will it be, "oh no everything's my fault.." and you get all upset with it, or will you respond with a positive attitude and try to change things TOGETHER with me?.. it's your choice..

i wanna be with you, i wanna be happy, and most importantly i want you to be happy. it does not mean that just because you are in poly, you are nothing.. you are my everything and my only one.. start thinking optimistic will you?

i know this post is going to sound so hostile on you.. but i really don't know what to do.. i just want us to work together...

P.S. I Love You

2008-02-25T10:34:00.000+08:00

Zenith 2!

haha it's finally over.. so sad yet so happy.. the times that we have spent together SCIP shall never be forgotten.. lol.. i sound so emo, but i'm not.. anyways just to begin.. i wanna thank ALL SCIP, OGLs, OGMs and all parties that have contributed to the success of zenith 2! thank you for all the effort, commitment and man hours you guys and gals have put into the planning of zenith 2 and also throughout the three days of orientation itself! i also want to thank you all for all the things that you guys and gals have taught over the last few weeks as i've definitely learnt a lot and of course not forgetting the fun that you guys and gals shared with me!!! THANK YOU! :)

hrm.. for you guys who don't really know what i'm talking about.. zenith 2 is basically TJC's second orientation this year. it's planned entirely by J1s and also led by J1s OGLs (of course we had teacher and sc mentors also) anyways it happened on 20th-22nd february.. we had around 5 weeks to plan for it.

day 1: the OGMs (first intake) had movie screening!! while (second intake) had talks :(.. then we had college trivia and mass dance in the afternoon!! well as expected the first day is always the sian day.. and of course many OGMs tried to escape from orientation haha.. but i thought the SCIPs handled things quite well so good job!! :)

day 2: today we had b-manji!! :) haha and mass dance in the afternoon.. and for today really need to thank all the OGLs, b-manji station masters and scip!! also today had really been a much better day compared to day 1.. yup so good job everyone!!! :)

day 3: the last and final day of orientation, it also marks the ending of the last orientation 2 (next year there won't be anymore pae) and also the ending of the last batch of SCIP's work.. it's really a mix of feeling today, and i guess everyone have really enjoyed the act today, the skits are all so funny.. and not forgetting the bloopers!! haha damn paiseh lar.. and last but not least ZEPHON WON!! woots!! arh and suntec mass dance was so unforgettable.. really cool :)

overall, Zenith 2 has been a bomb of experience and really really appreciate all the things i have learnt from fellow SCIP members, as well as the fun that we shared during the time of planning!!! i cant really put all other feelings of mine into words.. i just wanna once more extend my thanks to SCIP '08 and ZENITH 2 OGLs 'o8!! THANKS GUYS!!! (AND GALS :D)

2008-02-20T23:04:00.002+08:00

this emptiness i felt like no others...
is it the end?
or just the beginning?
no matter how hard i try,
i will never be there with others...
i wanna be a "human"...

2008-01-16T20:37:00.001+08:00

Orientation @ TJC!!!

oh my.. it's been another month again since i updated.. but hey.. i think this will be an interesting update lol.. so i kind of urge everyone to check it out!!! :P so basically.. i got posted to TJC on 2nd january 2008.. then...

1st day at TJ 2.01.2008 - Wednesday
oh my... i took a bus ride directly from bukit merah to TJC.. and it took like 1hr+.. and when i reach the school.. i feel damn exiled lar.. its like, i'm the only one from GESS that came to TJC.. everyone else had their own group of friends and were talking away.. while i was there by myself.. doing dunno what.. lol.. anyway i was in OG 16.. then all the fresh j1s attended talk for almost half a day.. i was bored to death.. and i even had the thinking.. "if only i didn't DSA.. i would not have come to TJC as i have no friends around..".... BUT... lunch time was a turning point to everything.. the OGLs started to mingle with us.. and i got to know the first few seniors.. angus, ji tng, amanda, shara, wen hui, li wen, amal and angeline!! haha.. they are a bunch of fun people man.. then i made my first friend in TJ, navin from TKSS.. haha.. he's another fun guy too.. and the day ended after the first mass dance practice... (we are gonna have a mass dance on friday)

2nd day at TJ 3.01.2008 - Thursday
was anticipating another fun day ahead.. and of course it was!! haha..had amazing race today.. and its really in an amazing scale all right.. for the race.. we had 4 districts to complete.. and within each district exist 7 stations that need to be completed... to me its really like WOW!! haha.. anyway today the group also start to gel even more during the race itself.. and unknowingly i again.. took the role of a leader lar.. cheering the OGMs... get them to RAWR.. haha.. together with navin.. and the whole group was really high.. very very encouraged by this.. and by now.. i LOVE my OG le.. haha.. its like they are such a bunch of crazy but friendly people man :).. den again we had a mass dance practice session... honestly im not really interested but.. its like the way the SCs dance was so cool.. i decided to try myself.. though i cant really get the steps LOL.. oh not forgetting.. today we started discussing about our OG performance for O-night on saturday and well i kind of get the role of one of the clan master and he's an ahbeng LOL... and i gotta take charge of the skit's script.. haha..

3rd day at TJ 4.01.2008 - Friday
another crazy crazy day.. today we had competitive games.. (ie. OG vs OG from different clans) and it's like water games lar!! haha.. everyone in my OG got wet by the end of our first game lol.. haha.. and of cos everyone was just high again!! lol.. after the competitive games, we had our practice time slot for the OG performance.. this was our only practice slot.. because we will have our auditions in the afternoon.. so rush.. but i think we practiced well enough.. haha then we had mass dance practice first before we had the audition.. although our whole clan was there.. i didn't feel nervous at all.. its like im so super confident on winning.. lol.. i think kind of overconfident lar.. anyway we went up there and did the performance.. keep making everyone laugh... but sadly we exceeded the time limit.. and i guess we were penalized for that.. although we werent chosen to represent the clan in the end.. but hey! i still think my OG's performance was still the best!!! way to go OG 16!! then the one of the most unforgettable moment of my life.. the mass dance session at suntec- fountain of wealth! at first i kind of damn sian lar.. why must dance.. so paiseh dance by the roadside.. and i didn't even know the steps well... BUT seriously it was unexpected.. everybody got so high after the serious business and everyone just went freestyle!!! haha.. seriously an unforgettable night man.. lol

4th day at TJ 5.01.2008
this is the day that i will always remember from now on. although it was the last day of our orientation.. but it was one of the best day of orientation.. although we only have to report to school at 3pm.. OG 16 had an outing to east coast park.. and it was crazy.. we played captain's ball.. in the water!!! everyone was wet after the game.. but hey IT WAS FUN LAR... haha everyone should go and try it man... then we played burying someone.. and lastly the monkey ball game.. wah.. that game arh.. when i became the monkey... everyone was like.. "dun let sendy catch the ball!! he must do forfeit!!" lol.. like so sabotage lar.. so i kind of give up.. BUT so lucky.. turn out during the last 15seconds of the game.. I MANAGED TO INTERCEPT THE BALL!!! lol.. then after the games we went for lunch at the hawker center (of cos we went to wash up first lol).. and then we make way to school to prepare for O-night.. haha.. the O-night itself.. i cant describe it in words.. its simply awesome.. had beautalent.. darefication.. og performance.. ryan beat box... samba dance... mass dance... and freestyle!! everyone just went mad towards the end of the O-night.. only those present will be able to feel what it's really like at TJ's orientation.. seriously.. i just love everything here.. haha..

TJC - my future. my choice

P.S. especially to OG 16 and the OGLs THANK YOU FOR MAKING MY STAY IN TJC A WONDERFUL ONE!! WILL NEVER FORGET YOU GUYS!! TAKE CARE AND SEEYA AROUND!! to the OGMs hope you will all stay in tjc after the JAE result release!!

2007-12-13T15:40:00.000+08:00

hrm.. long long time nvr blog liao.. HAHA!! so lazy lar.. its my 18th birthday today.. right 1 month after the O's last paper.. haha.. wow.. time flies.. and its been one month.. things start to go crazy.. haha everyday's like.. just out to have fun!! LOL... anyway.. class chalet followed soon..

chalet was mad man.. both days slept at only 4+ am.. HAHA! and 2nd day was even more crazy.. the night cycling robs my buttocks man.. (meaning.. i kind of loss the feelings of my buttocks!!! LOL) but hey it was a fun chalet.. real fun man... with all the guys shouting at the ps2 (winning eleven and smackdown all the way man.. lol).. other guys and gals gossiping.. barbeque on 2nd day.. arrival of mr. phua and mr. lim.. haha truly unforgettable.. :) just one thing to pity.. the lack of number of people that came.. yeah...

then there was our Prom night! haha.. another unforgettable night with you guys and gals at GESS.. had the prom night at holiday inn though :P.. although food was.. kinda bad.. but hey i really enjoyed the night.. it really is amazing.. but towards the end of the night.. only then did i realize.. that's the last time this year that so many of us are meeting as GESSIANS... everyone would go their own separate ways after this.. just like myself.. on to TJ.. hrm.. dun go on about it le.. lol.. later emo..

on to SL camp... wow.. this is where i learn a lot of things from the SLs as well as hoong leong.. i really didnt regret going to the camp.. i learn how to get on to the next stage of leadership.. really really learn a lot... the camp was fun-tastic as a learning medium for me.. and the new SL exco also had a lot of learning lessons.. yup.. so jiayou! i know you all can do it!! :D

then.. it was back to my homeland in indo!! haha.. it has been a boring 2 weeks with my house under renovation.. everyday see people walk in and out, paint here and there.. haha.. and it's finally come down to my birthday today.. though its kind of like any normal day.. slacking at home.. HAHA!! but going for dinner later.. yup :)

well.. today's also the result of the PAE admission to JC.. just wanna say to the guys and gals (especially 4i teammates, SL and PBmates) at GESS.. hope you all are satisfied with the results.. it's time that we take our steps to the next stage of our lives.. wish you all the best.. take care.. and of course KEEP IN TOUCH!! :)

oh.. last part for the post.. a few thank yous to some people for my birthday gifts... :)
1. pacs, zheng yi and carmel, for the cute monkey mug and wallet =)
2. hoong leong, for the cool swatch watch and the toilet bag LOL :P
3. my family, for my PSP SLIM!!! AFTER SUCH A LONG WAIT :>>>

2007-09-29T16:57:00.000+08:00

Personal Messages to People in GESS:

Riyanti:
Hrm... I have a lot to say to you, but i guess i will just summarize it this way. The best thing I have ever come across in my life was meeting you. =) You have given me the meaning of life, you have given tremendous support in many things that I do, you have taught me how to compromise, you have taught me how to be a better person.. simply said, if I never met you, I will never be the same like what I am now. I'm sorry for everything I have done wrong to you and also thank you for being such an understanding and forgiving better half. I love you and I hope we will stay the same forever, never to let go =D

Zheng Yi:
Thanks for being such a good deputy head prefect. I didn't know everything you have done for me to support me. That day after you had a talk with hoong leong in his car, he told me what have you done.. and I really really appreciate it. I was also guilty.. didn't know why I still can be such a dork, keep scolding you for your or whatever.. hrm.. hope you will forgive me ya? And that day when you told me that I should be proud that i can score that kind of L1R5 with so many involvements at hand while others did not.. I was really touched. Thank you Zhengyi.. without me realizing it, you have become one of the best friend I will ever have. Good luck in your future endeavours and take care! as for "her" well.. i can only say good luck ya? =)

Sultan:
Hrm.. I really have got to thank you from the bottom of my heart ya? haha.. we have frequent fights here and there and i guess mostly it's because of my fault? yup so do forgive me ya? i'm this kind of unreasonable person. but whatever it is.. you are still another best friend that i will also have.. i really appreciate everything you have done for me and the support u gave me as a friend. Don't be so disappointed with your prelim marks, because in the end you still do better than me.. yup.. so good luck for O levels and take care! hope we will stay as friends forever!

Hoong Leong:
hrm.. it all started since I was year 1? haha still remember vividly how I used to be afraid of you because I feel I had done something wrong by not joining your cca.. but when you told me you didn't even hold it against me, i was quite shocked.. haha, well I guess that's the start of our friendship? I have learnt many things from the way you talk, the way you do things, the life experiences that you have shared with me. Although, everytime I will have a big fight with many of my friends when I talked about you to them, I still hold on to this friendship.. yup.. haha so in a way I was sandwich, but like you always say "as long as you are not guilty.." =) haha.. I have really benefited a lot from our friendship, and I hope it will stay this way forever yup. I just wanna apologise for everything I have done wrong, and also thank you for everything you have done for me.. I really appreciate it.. Good luck with SL next year and don't worry I will try to help as much as possible.. Take care!
(...if you fail to plan, you plan to fail...)

PACS:
hrm, you people come in the list as a group, because it's very difficult to talk about you guys and gals separately.. haha, in my eyes the bond you guys had is inseparable.. Peng, Angeline, Cheryl and Safwan.. you guys revived the meaning of friendship in my heart, when I have lost almost everything.. for that I am really grateful.. although at times I still feel odd being with you guys and gals, but I really appreciate it that I have you as friends. I pray for your bond to stay the same forever because I dont want to see you all separate.. yup.. i cant really put my other feelings into words.. its too abstract haha.. so good luck to all of you and take care!! Stay forever the same and stay PACS!!! =P

... there are many more to go, but i have to go for now.. so will probably continue tomorrow =P

2007-09-29T16:48:00.000+08:00

28 September 07 - G.E.S.S Graduation Ceremony

wow.. it's finally come down to this day.. it's graduation day.. hrm.. i guess many people would have mixed feelings just like me.. yup.. i dont want to leave this school.. and also my beloeved friends and teacheres.. haha.. also dont know how to string those feelings into words... well guess it's a sad yet happy day? :P.. well we had the ceremony at 11.. had normal lessons before that.. but mr. phua and ms. chia was kind enough to let us slack! haha.. thanks to them.. well anyway we watched the guardian in mr. phua's lesson.

at 11, hrm.. the moment we have been waiting for, start of the ceremony.. angeline, zheng yi and me went to usher the VIPs up to the hall.. it started with address by mr. giam, followed by the VIP speech, dr. alan prem kumar.. he's a damn blur man lar.. well anyway, next was the graduating teams went up to the stage to receive the graduation package, team by team and we also watched videos from the teams for the coaches.. hrm.. i guess by now people are crying? i dont know.. haha.. after that was my speech.. i know a lot of people wasn't even paying attention lol.. but well.. i dont know, was kind of nervous.. some more my family was around.. haha.. followed by angeline's reading of rite passage then zheng yi school creed.. there it was the end of the ceremony... hrm.. den meet up with the pb exco and give them some thing and took picture with them.. yups... dont know how to elaborate more.. a very sad day indeed.. haha...

2007-09-06T15:30:00.000+08:00

oops.. haven't been blogging for a long long time.. haha.. busy busy for the past few weeks.. anyway now that teachers' day is over.. i only have prelims and Os to worry now!! haha..

anyway HAPPY BELATED TEACHERS' DAY to all the teachers out there especially the teachers in gan eng seng school.. hope you guys enjoyed the celebration we have planned for you that day!! though it might not have been perfect.. (well.. its our first time plannin for such a big scale event.. haha)

and to fellow gessians out there, prelims as well as N level's just round the corner... GOOD LUCK TO ALL !! JIA YOU and ALL THE WAY!!! :D

2007-08-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

you were the other best friend that i had...
yet.. i don't know what's happening to us..
to you, the way we talk maybe the usual way we talked..
but to me.. the way you talked have changed.. or is it really i changed to such a degree that i cannot take ur words anymore? so who's fault is it? why do i have the feeling from ur respond that ur blaming everything on me? maybe when you see this, you will say "i didn't mean it that way, but if u think that way, there's nothing i can do, so be it"..
do you know how hurtful this phrase can be?

to me, you were one of the very few who can understand me very well, the support you gave me during the SL camp was tremendous.. you stood by all my nonsensical, unreasonable reasonings last year and earlier this year, although i never show it, i appreciate the God for giving me such a friend.. but why do all of this have to change? is it worth it to just give up of friendship cause of this "thing"? true at this point of time a lot of people, and maybe including you will think that i am the one who is abandoning friendship for the "thing" but you all just don't understand how lonely it can be...

all that i wanna say is.. thank you for everything you have done for me, i believe that all of this change began with me, thus most of it is my fault, yet i don't think it's 100% my fault, if i can say i would tell you now that 5% is your fault, many things you have done just hurt me that much.. but maybe i'm not in the right position to say anything now... well whatever it is i wish for you a successful life and happy one ahead, at the very least you still have a lot of friend... good luck my best friend....

in the heart, best friend will always be one, yet in reality, everything changes....

2007-08-14T21:40:00.000+08:00

WHO AM I?????

who am i to you?

who am i to him?

who am i to her?

WHO AM I???????????

... what am i.. who am i...

i am what i think i am....

i am what you think i am...

head prefect??? sl president???

my identity cannot be found anymore when i gain these posts...

why cant i just be someone normal?

??WHY CAN'T I BE SEEN AS SENDY???

haiz...

*a lost identity. a lost soul. a lost sendy*

2007-08-02T20:51:00.000+08:00

...CHANGE...

over these few years i have live in singapore i have changed a lot a lot a lot... hrm.. but this year bring out the most change in me.. dunno whether is it for the better or for the worse.. true enough i am now the leaders or the leaders in gan eng seng.. but at what cost? I have lost so many (uncountable) friends.. and to wad cause? sometimes i ask myself if it’s worth it..

“you’ve put to much time into SL, that you neglected your friends” said someone to me… another person said, “you are turning into THAT person (i dun wanna mention who)”.. all these sentences made me feel very very very very depressed.. furthermore adding with all the stress the school’s teachers are giving me.. i carry so much burden on my shoulder.. sometimes i even feel like giving up my posts when discouraging words like this reach my ears…

i have put so much into student leadership that it changes my mindset drastically.. im beginning to think like someone else, not a typical teenager nowadays.. why am i having all these thoughts? my “guide” told me that im growing and beginning to see that the world isn’t that pretty, that i will meet people whom are hard to work with. i accepted those words, telling myself, that i can only rely on myself for everything that i do. when something goes wrong, i only have myself to blame.

yesterday i did something which i have never done before.. i guess those in 4is know what i’m talking about, some of you told me that im abusing my power, yet another person told me that it was the only right way to go. i told myself not to take sides with either one, and i have come with a conclusion, if only by doing so can i move 4i, then i will, i dont care how u all will hate me, its just too unfortunate that you are in the same class with me.

my last wish for 4Is, prelims are just around the corners, O’s are just following up.. so let’s work together towards those flying colours, no matter how much you all wanna deny the fact that we are regarded as the best class by many teachers, we are still one in the eyes of the teachers, that’s why i think we CANNOT LET THEM AND OURSELVES DOWN.. sometimes its sad to think that in about 3-4 months we will be going our separate ways, as for myself i will be going temasek.. so i really hope you guys will treasure the time we have together.. listen up to our team and deputy team captain, follow the way they will be showing you all, and no matter what happens we will reach that end line together, faster than the rest!!! ALL THE WAY 4IS!!!!

2007-07-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

hrm after two whole bloody weeks after the school reopened.. i finally get a chance to relax.. first week was basically busy with mocks... 2nd week had a lot of special days but cant celebrate with riyanti.. sorry gal...

highlight of the week:
met up with the year coaches to discuss about booking procedure by the prefects.. and we have finalise it and it will take effect from next week onwards. hopefully this booking will serve as a reminder for the gessians to be at their best at all times. other than that, the year coaches also suggested that some exco members should hold on to a whistle and blow it every morning when the time comes for gessians to start flooding in the arena.. so there we are, blowing whistle starting from today.. haha.. anyway also did a quick announcement on the booking procedure to make sure that the school population are aware of it.

next had a sl programme on friday just before the meeting with the year coaches. quickly updated the student leaders with the current and upcoming events for them. also did a bit of discussion for teachers’ day celebration and finally wrapped up. the attendance was good from the prefect side, but im not so sure about the cca leaders and team captains.. hrm.. anyway also had an sl exco meeting and updated stuffs that need to be done..

4^th july.. which happens to be wednesday is riyanti’s birthday.. i noe it’s a bit too late, but happy belated birthday! may all your wish come true and stay happy always!!! sorry for not being able to celebrate with you…. Hope you enjoyed the sakae sushi lunch cum dinner.. haha..

today was another busy day.. had to submit a “proposal” to mr loh, the vp.. but turns out he wasnt in school.. was feeling quite desperate then because its quite an urgent matter.. anyway went to mdm zahara after school (since she’s the teacher-in-charge for prefectorial board) fortunately she kinds of accept the proposal.. haha.. anyway had amaths lesson and peer tutoring for english afterwards.. and finally had to go down the arena to help mr. benedict tan with the national day decorations.. quite glad that a lot of prefects attended to help so thanks a lot guys! really appreciate it =) keep up the good work prefects!! and was also very very happy that mr. tan gave us all 4 ½ CIP hrs.. haha thanks mr. tan!

again today 6^th july another special day.. very very very sorry that i can’t spend time with u dear… hrm.. really feeling guilty hope to make it up tomorrow.. =)

anyway also got back physics mock score… 71% overall for paper 1 and 2… then got a D7 for cca.. freaking pissed that the school didn’t recognize me as the head prefect.. was so damn lazy to even fight lar.. but this one really really must thank mr. chan.. because he helped to me to get a b4 at least =) thanks mr. chan!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST………… I AM ACCEPTED AND OFFERED A PLACE IN TEMASEK JUNIOR COLLEGE!! WOW SO DAMN BLOODY HAPPY ABOUT IT.. YES!! MY SHORT-TERM GOAL IS FINALLY REACHED.. YES YES YES.. HAHA.. anyway gotta go there next tuesday to get the letter of confirmation offer.. hrm.. haha looking forward to it...

2007-07-04T22:11:00.001+08:00

i used to treat school as my home...

now i hate it...
i really do...

2007-06-23T23:25:00.001+08:00

23 June

hrm.. it's the rod for the pb'o6 seniors.. haha.. came down at 8am and was quite glad all the sec3s are there.. haha anyway got down to business to sort of clear the prefects' room.. and wow.. did in an hour plus.. good job man :).. anyway time for the prefects to rehearse their performances (the year4s had to do the same since we didnt have time to prepare yet) anyway it was practise practise practise all the way until 1230 before the seniors start coming to school.. haha.. then had the perfomances

year1s.. some skit involving new gessians... bullying by other gessians... some prefects and bla bla bla.. haha and they sang girlfriend!!! :)

year2s did a joint performance with the year3s.. hrm.. was something about juniors disrespecting seniors during a camp and all.. and they sang care bear =.= haha!!

last but not least the year4s!! we acted in a skit, some singing contests to be precise.. hrm.. funny singings.. lots of nonsensical talkings and everything.. haha sorry guys but i thought the year4 performance was the best!! :P

anyway had pizzas for lunch.. oh my.. i didn't get any though.. but went to tiong for lunch with some of the exco and yr3s along with some of the seniors... haha.. tiring day....

to seniors: hope you guys enjoyed the ROD performance.. and really hope to clarify things with you guys.. just want to add, if really you guys want gan eng seng to move on.. as an sl president and head prefect i hope you will support both these organizations, because eventually they are the ones moving the school.. prefects are not working alone anymore.. i think if we are jst talking about who's in power.. it will be meaningless.. yup.. sorry if i offended you all by saying these

to year3 prefects: good job today.. keep it up, i was really impressed with the way you all took initiatives today.. however keep in mind about what the seniors about you guys ya? :) way to go!

2007-06-17T11:31:00.000+08:00

16th June

hrm.. went to scholl for preparation of ROD for the senior prefects. however today i wasn't the main personnel.. haha everything is handled by the exco.. cool :) anyway we had a somewhat rigorous pt i guess before moving on to a sort of icebreaker game... ("who's my cute partner???") did lots of running.. and stupid game master call me to play then i have to run around like a mad dog chasing all the juniors... after that had a headache.. so went to the prefects' room to rest while the year 1, 2 and 3 prefects discussed about their ROD performance.. hrm.. next activity was NORTH SOUTH EAST WEST CAPTAIN'S BALL heard of it before? haha.. anyway was fun!! cos i also join after a while.. and when i became captain.. walau.. chaotic man.. whenever my teammate get the ball EVERYONE will crowd around me.. my goodness.... last activity was dog and bone.. quite a fun game as well but had to stop as it was raining.. then i briefed the prefects further about their discussion before dismissing them.. after that the year 4 prefects went to lunch at griller... while discussing OUR ROD performance haha... anyway after a while saw sheryln, kai qi, eelin, jessica and mattheus.. turn out the gals wanted to take neoprint while mattheus came to join us... then suddenly the gals came out to me.. asking me to take neoprint with them......................... shyt... anyway dun want to say about it.. went to cut hair and then went back home.. haha.. tiring day...

2007-06-11T23:45:00.001+08:00

SL CAMP!!

yo guys!!! its finally... the day I have been waiting for!!!! Gan Eng Seng School very first Student Leaders' residential camp!!! wow... damn bloody excited about it... haha... could even wake up at 6am when i only slept at 2am!!! haha... anyway hope all the hard work by the sl excom will pay off in this camp...

Day 1
got to school early together with the sl excom and had to tie lots of loose ends.. haha anyway nearing 8pm campers started reporting and i had to make an appearance to welcome them... damn.. it was so awkward.. haha... i really had no experience of being a camp chief before and so didn't know how to set the tone... did some admin stuff after which i did a very BORING briefing.. haha i know.. anyway lucky mr. chan helped me to set the tone and from then on it's all up to me!! haha... the sls' started with their ice breakers (which did not break any ice :p) followed by station games... i can see the through station games some of the group are starting to gel together (i know it's a bit hard as they all come from different backgrounds) anyway lunch was next followed by amazing race... though some hiccups occur but everything went smoothly and then there was water war!!!! probably the most chaotic and enjoyable activities to all the sls including the facilitators.. haha!! dinner followed and there were perfomances before the night activity.. haha.. i know lots of you suffered the night activity BUT it's fun right???? :D... after which we have to decide whether to continue watching movie as it was already over time and quite late... but anyway the sls made a choice to watch.. so first day sleeping time for campers: 3.15am, sleeping time for facilitators: 4am... sleeping time for me: 4.30am.. (still got some stuffs to do lol)

Day 2
facilitators had a hell of a morning with pt by mr. ganesh and mr. chan... well.. it kind of works though as it woke us up as well as the campers (we were shouting like mad.. haha.. sorry campers) anyway after our pt, angeline led the campers' pt while i did some preparation for the later activities. today the campers started with jumping squares and bouncing dodgeball, which most of them claim to be very fun!!! (sorry for lack of time given campers..) anyway the core activity of this camp: SL SHARING SESSION followed... hm the activity that i dread most.. cause i expected everyone to start falling asleep... BUT WOW... the campers were still all very enthu!!! haha.. not until my solid half-an hour talk though.. lol.. anyway moved on with lunch before coming back to ava to discuss about some events in semester 2 before moving to their very last activity at 2pm: tower construction... with only newspapers and masking tape.. haha... group 5 came out with some real strong tower that can hold up around 2 liter of water!!! BUT BUT BUT mr. ganesh came out with a bottle holding up 5.7 liters of water!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!! haha so cool... anyway after area cleaning and debrief campers were all dismissed while facilitators had a brief AAR meeting.

to coaches: thank you for your help in the planning as well as activities in the camp!! we greatly appreciate it

to facilitators: WELL DONE GUYS!!! CONGRATULATIONS AS THE CAMP WAS A SUCCESS!!! thanks for all of your support that this feat was achievable, really wanna thank you guys from the bottom of my heart!!!!

to campers: hope you guys enjoyed the camp!!! haha.. not forgetting hope you guys learn a lot from the activities. and and and the performances were IMPRESSIVE!!!! it was so unexpected that you all could come with such performances without the aid of the facilitators... WELL DONE GUYS!!!! (GIVE YOUR SELF 1 SOLID SL CLAP!!! HAHAHHAA) anyway really really really hope you guys learn more about yourselves, fellow sls, and also leadership qualities. :) and lastly thanks again for participating in the camp and i hope that you guys will be more forthcoming in student leaders stuff in the future!!!

to group 5: CONGRATS as you guys have won the best group award!!! WELL DONE :D

after thought: i guess this camp was a great success despite some minur hiccups and time delay.. but it has provided me with some real situations where i can develop my leadership qualities further.. :) IT'S A FUN, ENJOYABLE AND YET FRUITFUL CAMP!!!! :D

2007-06-02T00:58:00.001+08:00

time has changed...

one can never turn the clock around...

all that can be done is to keep moving onward...

i try hard to tell myself to keep on moving onward..

forget the past, live in the present and look to the future...

is that what YOU want?

because it definitely is not what I want..

but somehow I am forced to do it...

.............................................................

2007-05-31T12:40:00.000+08:00

MY 100th POSTS!!!! :D At the End of the World, the Adventure Begins

casts:
johnny depp as jack sparrow
geoffrey rush as barbossa
orlando bloom as will turner
keira knightley as elizabeth swann
bill nighy as davy jones

plot:
After Elizabeth (Keira Knightly), Will (Orlando Bloom), and Captain Barbossa (Geoffrey Rush) rescue Captain Jack Sparrow (Johnny Depp) from the the land of the dead, they must face their foes, Davey Jones (Bill Nighy) and Lord Cutler Beckett (Tom Hollander). Beckett, now with control of Jones' heart, forms a dark alliance with him in order to rule the seas and wipe out the last of the Pirates. Now, Jack, Barbossa, Will, Elizabeth, Tia Delma, and crew must call the Pirate Lords from the four corners of the globe, including the infamous Sao Feng (Chow-Yun Fat), to gathering. The Pirate Lords want to release the goddess Calypso, Davey Jones's damned lover, from the trap they sent her to out of fear, in which the Pirate Lords must combine the 9 pieces that bound her by ritual to undo it and release her in hopes that she will help them fight. With this, all pirates will stand together and will make their final stand for freedom against Beckett, Jones, Norrington, the Flying Dutchman, and the entire East India Trading Company

i copied the plot so as not to accidentally gives spoiler for those of you who havent seen the movie and yet anticipating to watch it

overall: 9/10
great action-packed movie.. nice effects... cool casts.. though a bit of confusing plot.. haha.. you guys should watch it really :D

2007-05-25T22:03:00.002+08:00

25.5.07

today is the last day of the year 4 ace camp.. finally after 3 long days.. haha learnt a lot during this three days.. including one very important thing that i think im fortunate to find out. leadership posts can be use to apply for a dsa to jc.. yahoo!!! and i also learn a lot about architecture!! :D

anyway today a happy mixed with sad day... hrm..
happy: we've got to see the FIRST SL shirt sample!!! feel very proud of myself for designing such a shirt :D.... next was the discussion for the sl camp.. went well i guess.. hrm...
sad: cheryl hamster died... oh god.. and it has to die in the pb room.. hrm.. anyway condolences to it.. i will make sure the other hamster don't die.. hrm...

dats basically for today.. haha and im damn happy because i get to keep the sample of the sl shirt yay!!! :D

to all gessians: please remember to report to school on monday at 8am for your mother tongue language paper. bring along your ic AND a transparent pencil case

to anonymous: sorry..............

2007-05-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

our story. our words

cast:
hilary swank as erin gruwell
patrick dempsey as scott casey
scott glenn as steve
imelda staunton as margaret campbell
april l. hernandez as eva
jason finn as marcus

plot:
a young teacher (Swank) inspires her class of at-risk students to learn tolerance, apply themselves, and pursue education beyond high school. (lol just copy paste.. lazy write)

overview: 8/10
nice and inspirational movie. i've liked this kind of movies all along. they inspire you to change.. yup that's all i can say. worth to watch movie too

2007-05-19T23:42:00.001+08:00

我一直都在你身后等待

等你有一天回过头看我

我的笑送给你

希望你快乐

你的难过都给我

关于你的一切我都好好收藏着

我一直都在你身后等待

等你有一天能感觉到我

就算我在你世界渺小像一颗尘埃

我也会给你我所有的光和热

2007-05-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

我一直都在你身后等待

等你有一天回过头看我

我的笑送给你

希望你快乐

你的难过都给我

关于你的一切我都好好收藏着

我一直都在你身后等待

等你有一天能感觉到我

就算我在你世界渺小像一颗尘埃

我也会给你我所有的过和热

2007-05-13T19:41:00.000+08:00

wah... had a hell training regime today with a "person" whom i don't want to mention the name lol... suppose to climb up and down mt. faber for 5 times... shyt... climb up the first time already like... going to die... haha... in the end only manage to go up 3 times.... shyt man.. so weak... then went to mt. faber and got some ne lesson from him.. thanks a lot :).. anyway that's it.. going to do homeworks now.. so many things to do, so little time haha..

pictures of the day... singapore history.. hrm.. interesting.. cool masterpiece to me :)

2007-05-12T17:48:00.000+08:00

my mind's just not working right now... hrm...

so many things to do...

so little time...

help... haha...

2007-05-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

Movie event of the year

Turning to the dark side

cast:

tobey maguire as spider-man / peter parker

kirsten dunst as mary jane watson

james franco as harry osborn

thomas haden church as sandman / flint marko

topher grace as venom / eddie brock

plot:

spider-man has become a justice symbol in new york city. peter (Maguire) is also getting comfortable with balancing himself as a student and a crimewatcher. however, a sudden change began to take over as soon as a new “companion” from outer planet comes along and merge with his suit. the symbiote amplifies peter’s dark ego and turned him into the black spiderman. the plot soon grows and spider-man (after taking off his “black suit”) finds himself having to fight both sandman and a new “deadly” opponent…

overall: 10/10!!!!

damn.. have been waiting for this movie since like.. erh 3 million years ago? and it’s finally out!!! what’s more… i watched in gold class!!! Thanks to Merrie.. haha… TO THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVEN’T WATCH IT… IT’S A BLOODY MUST WATCH MOVIE OF THE YEAR.. so what are you waiting for.. get your butts to the cinema and watch it now

2007-05-04T22:11:00.000+08:00

sigh.. the world's turning upside down..

and why? i don't know.. feel like it's because of me...

i know you guys are trying to defend me and the class' pride..

but do u know how guilty i am when u guys argue about it in front of me..

how about you? why do you have to do all these stupid stuffs...

make me wanna puke... shytty...

PROMISE

was it a promise?? i don't even know..

maybe all along.. it was a one-sided.. and i assumed..

haha.. good luck for ur future in whatever things you do..

i just wish that i, or rather, we will not be forgotten..

take care :)..

2007-05-01T18:51:00.000+08:00

to anonymous: this is the thing that i have been keeping a secret of.. break it.. and you know what i had been thinking... whatever it is you decide to think after breaking it.. i hope you will be happy always :)........

hint: "our mysterious number", the message contains 36 letters as well

jkfi leal dgfo eklv

fdse dksy cxlo ioiu

wqpi iosd wedo newn

dflt kljw lkja uion

lipt ljlt ucfo eerb

lkje ewpj cxpu ifos

relt wleb pdse mews

jdst jldf iwor xlki

fkde pdfn ldkd ewls

2007-04-30T18:26:00.000+08:00

S E N D Y

hrm.. this here.. is my name (LOL :P)

lame facts about my name:
it's got five letters..
for me, that's the only name i have in my birth cert (meaning i have no surname whatsoever)
the shortest name in zps
the shortest name in gess
the shortest head prefect name that would be carved on the "head prefect" board
sounds like "sandy" (a girl name)
was given to me, somehow, because of my chinese name last character (升)

facts that i recently found out:
it's a UNISEX name!!! (got a girl called sendy as well in singapore!!! goodness!! haha)

facts that i ponder about:
what if i have a partner called sendy?
my child would say, "my father is sendy and my mother is sendy"
maybe i will name my child sendy as well :P
when making a "pair" stuff (eg phone strap) i just have to put down sendy. and it can be used by both me and my girlfriend
how many sendy's are there in the world? so far i have met 2...
if ever there is a website which rate names, how would "sendy" fare?

closing word: LOL XP

2007-04-30T18:13:00.000+08:00

30.04.07

hrm.. havent been blogging for quite a while now.. haha.. last week was quite a hectic yet boring week.. yup.. quite a 'down' week as well. had mock for paper 1 and 2 for mt. screwed the letter writing part i guess.. haha.. anyway watched a documentary called "kallang wave" on friday.. thought it taught me a lot of things, but was quite a boring documentary.. i guess everyone was asleep. after the movie went to swensens with mr. chan. thanks for meal hee hee. :)

had physics lesson on saturday.. he just taught us how to plot graph properly.. wasted like what. 2 hrs for that? haha. anyway had griller for lunch with beng and sultan. then helped beng to carry groceries back home.. lol the scene was so comical. so many stuffs.. probably for one month supply. then went out with merrie (she was back in s'pore for a while) in the evening walked around in orchard.. only came back at around 12am. hahah

sunday.. wanted to study physics practical, but because my aunt was playing mahjong. so i went out,with emily to central (the new shopping center at eu tong sen street).. quite a nice place but confusing as well. had lunch at a japanese restaurant and guess what.. there was this girl waitress called sendy!!! get it right S-E-N-D-Y!! can't believe it sia.. haha. so cool.. anyway went to a cafe around tanjong pagar next. emily had to meet up with her ex boss, and i was using her laptop haha.. anyway went off at around 6pm to meet up with mr. chan and peng at bkt merah macdonald to ask about some practical stuffs. and found out that there were a lot of stuffs that mr. lim choon beng didn't tell us (eg have to do 1 question withing 45mins!!! my goodness...) so again thanks a lot goes to mr. chan for telling me all these. haha

today, had the practical for physics, everyone was so nervous, guessing which question would come out. all i can say about the practical was.. it's quite all right.. just that, maybe because it was the first practical exam we have, some of us didn't have enough time, or were too nervous.. anyway now that it's over, we can all relax for one day (tomorrow labour day lol) before starting to study for chem practical on thursday!! haha..

2007-04-25T21:27:00.000+08:00

a rose just for you...

...you alone...

does it look like a rose? haha drew it for the class decoration competition. :)

2007-04-25T21:23:00.000+08:00

orh.. my aunt's back le.. probably will blog very little nowadays.. lol..

good luck for mock and mid year exams everyone!! let's mug hard and achieve what we want at the end of the day!!! :)

though some stuffs may happen these past few days that brought me down.. i can only hope things will get better.. don't bother so much.. I'LL JUST MUG HARD AND FORGET EVERYTHING!!!

2007-04-23T17:36:00.000+08:00

22.04.07

hrm.. woke up quite early to start cleaning the house.. but later decided to wait for emily to wake up first.. and in the end i thought i really did very little.. only vacuum and mop the floor.. damn..very stress now.. don't what will auntie say when she comes back on tuesday... anyway did one english articles before going over to tiong bahru plaza to meet zhengyi.. we were going to meet up with mr. chan for dinner at pasir panjang food center.. along with angeline, mel, beng and peng. because mr. chan car could only seat 4 people, beng and i went to take a bus ride. ordered lots of nice food there.. especially the "zhuzhu" (dunno how to spell).. a kind of snail you suck in to eat.. may sound very disgusting but it taste delicious.. for the sotong and stingray.. it was average... the one and henderson market is nicer.. haha anyway went to vivo after we ate, this time beng and me took mr. chan's car while the rest took a bus. tried m&m milkshake wasn't that bad at all haha.. after talk crap for a while on the upper level of vivo and went to play photo hunt before going home.. :)

to beng: lol, at long last you've got the taste of that m&m milkshake :) hope you like it

to mr. chan: thanks for the meal.. enjoyed it lots and the feedback for the logo as well..

2007-04-22T15:05:00.000+08:00

21.04.07

hrm.. had a general meeting for the prefects today.. haven't even start meeting, already mdm foo came searching for me.. walau.. say what teacher never book or whatever shit.. anyway in the end promise her to set up the chairs for the pta.. the meeting.. hrm.. i thought it was quite successful for the yr1s and yr3s.. yr2s and 4s attendance sucked.. so little came.. appreciate those who came thanks.. after the meeting, yr3 prefects stayed back for a discussion session with zheng yi and peng.. wanted to stay as well but could not because had physics extra lesson.. after lesson went to eat in long john with beng, sultan and jane.. went back home afterwards.. after resting for awhile headed to bugis for dinner with emily and noelle.. who knows noelle family were around as well.. had a sumptuous meal in sakae yumyum.. haha then went to walk walk with them in haji lane? interesting place.. was back home at 11pm..

to yupin: i told you i would find who's the prank caller right? no use being scared now

to prefects that attended the meeting: thanks for coming down, hope the meeting wasn't a waste of time

to anonymous: whoops.. sorry.. fell asleep while waiting for you.. lol..

2007-04-22T00:24:00.000+08:00

20.04.07

friday.. it was the judging day for the classroom door-decorating competition.. mr. giam surely was too "excited" to judge man.. was already judging as early as 8am!!.. damn.. and there our classroom decorations were not done yet.. don't know what's the result yet.. anyway had the last time slot for team captains interview today. but the turnout was very very bad.. only 3 or 4 of them turned up.. anyway the result is out and finally today the student leaders' executive committee is set up. but couldn't assign each individual's designation yet (vice president, secretary, etc).. went to eat at kfc with safwan, angeline and mattheus. went back home. met up with cheryl and carmel for dinner and went for the SHORTEST pool game ever.. lol.. imagine we only paid 3 bucks!! haha.. anyway was rushing homework.. and had to draw the pb logo by tomorrow as there will be a general meeting

to anonymous: sorry, forgotten to say good luck to you...

to anonymous prank caller: you better watch it, i'll find out who are you by tomorrow

2007-04-19T21:27:00.000+08:00

19.04.07

hrm.. woke up quite late today.. anyway had normal lessons.. nothing interesting happened.. had to present cme project.. luckily nothing goes wrong.. haha :).. had ne trip in the afternoon, went to the civil district and took lots of photo.. LOL!! the trip was quite enjoyable yup.. luckily the weather wasn't so bad.. anyway back in school continued to rush for the classroom door decoration.. hrm.. drew a rose.. but didn't complete.. so will take e photo tmr. anyway reach back home quite late today.. hrm.. nothing to do now.. so is blogging...

photos...
marina mandarin... can u see e elephant shape?

can u see the no. 13??

esplanade...

lin qian and me... :)

the merlion.. moved :P.. can u spot me?

how big can a bird grow???

open mind, open heart.. secret to success

Singapore's fastest duck in 2002?? hrmm

to beng: don't be sad over the competition hor..

to year 4 teams: good luck for the decoration competition, may the best team wins! :)

2007-04-19T20:29:00.000+08:00

18.04.07

went to school for usual lesson today.. had a bio test.. hrm.. don't think i'm going to do well for it though.. anyway found out that for napfa test, my class can only report at 3.20pm so went for the team captain interview first.. the yr1 and 2 batch today.. unfortunately for some reason the year2s didn't come.. went for napfa.. scored 5points for everything.. but don't know what the shyt happened.. i couldn't do any pull-ups.. friggin' embarrasing.. shytty..had 4 points for 2.4km run.. so that was (4+5x4+0 = 24 pts).. but i still fail.. NO!!! gonna try again on monday.. hrm.. did the class door decoration then.. black was bask today.. so got the whole class moving.. hrm.. reached home at 7pm.. then did a few english articles.. sian.. must do 11 by the end of this week... =.+

to yr1 team captains: thanks for coming down to the interview.. will release the result soon.. :)

to black: hrm.. can see you're recovering quite well.. rest your eyes for a few day more, and it should be allright :)

2007-04-17T22:18:00.000+08:00

a better leader... for my followers...

a better friend... for others...

a better person... for myself...

if i aspire all these.. would i be able to acquire it?

how long? how hard? how successful?

2007-04-17T18:58:00.000+08:00

17.04.07

don't have anything much to say today..

was angry over something.. and ashamed over something as well...

sorry.. i really didn't know why i did that...

and i could never forget that face...

im too afraid to face you...

i'm sorry...

there's also another person i have to say sorry too..

i have let you down lots of time.. i don't know why i just can't seem to keep my promises...

...sigh...

~J MPWF V~

2007-04-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

16.04.07

had normal day of lesson.. decided not to run for 2.4 le.. not necessary to do so for me to get gold.. hrm.. anyway got 26/30 for physics.. lame shyt.. missed one mark to 90%.. so i lost my bet with mr. chan.. hrm.. anyway bet with him i will get 80% for mock.. haha.. must study man.. ss lesson went to computer lab 3 to do an ne quiz.. was actually a comp game.. quite fun.. haha.. you basically answer questions relating to the history of singapore.. throughout the game you will be able to build around singapore and watch how she grows through time.. your score will be based on ur money and asset value.. you gain asset value when you build.. and it will grow along with the era.. aj told us to aim for at least 400k of score.. lol.. in the end i got HIGHEST.. 612k MASTER BUiLDER.. MUAHAHAHA.. aj owe me something now.. had team captain interview in the afternoon.. attendance and performance wise were good for the year 3s... but not year 4 and 5s.. hm.. after that went to eat in mos with angeline.. then went home.. did homework and went to kopitiam at around 8pm with emily to have dinner.. then now back home and just finished my homeworks.. haha.. adios..

to yr3 team captains: thanks for coming down. really appreciate it.. the results will be released soon. keep a lookout!

to yr4 team captains: thanks to the team captains of 5A and 4C for coming.. the rest of you who didn't have a proper reasoning for coming.. i don't know what you guys are up to..

to mr. aj: better get me something valuable.. muahahaha

to mr. chan: don't worry i'll prove to you i can get 80% for my physics mock

2007-04-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

15.04.07

woke up at around 10am.. went for breakfast.. then came back home.. mop and vacuumed e floor... mugging day and had to plan for the team captains interview tomorrow as well.. hmph.. boring day.. haha.. nth much happened...

to riyanti: sorry for not being able to make it.. no matter what we will catch the movie on tuesday okay?.. sorry..

to lin qian: sorry arh forget to sms you.. hm..

to student leaders' excom: a reminder for tomorrow's interview, it will be starting from 2.30pm to 4+. the venue will be announced tomorrow yup

2007-04-15T01:14:00.000+08:00

14.04.07

saturday.. had physics at 1.30pm.. as usual.. went to kfc after lesson (which is around 3.30pm) had lunch with beng, sultan and lin qian (jane went along with us, but went home without eating).. quickly went back home.. had to be back in school by 6.30pm for the scouts annual campfire.. it was their 85th year.. hm.. was invited to represent the student leaders by mr. chan. unfortunately it started to rain at about 7pm.. so we had to move to the hall.. man.. he looked so sad and disappointed BUT.. at 8pm THE RAIN STOPPED!! and we went back to the arena!! WOOHOO!! haha.. scouts your works are not wasted after all!!! anyway the campfire was a fun one!! but didn't have performance from other school's scouts like last year.. a bit not fun.. haha anyway i enjoyed it and there was also buffet afterwardS!! wow.. haha.. went home and met emily at tbp.. took bus together.. and here i am.. jst finished one of my english articles.. haha.. zzz..

mr. lim's magnetic stuff.. cool

the token for student leaders given by the scouts.. nice!!

to mr. chan: thanks for inviting us to the campfire!!

to dragon scouts: thanks for the token!! it was nice haha..

to the year 3 ncc cadets: you guys are not even fit to be called student leaders or ncc.. yucks.. you guys seriously brought down the ncc to an even lower level in my eyesight

2007-04-14T23:15:00.000+08:00

word of the day

a: ".. it's made up of two word.. the first word arh.. is.. only man have.."

b: ".. DICK!!"

*laughter laughter.. ROFL.. LMAO..

a: ".. no no.. shoot out one.."

c: ".. sperm.."

a: "yaya that's it.. so the second word is.."

d: ".. sperm whale!!"

so there you go, it's SPERM WHALE!
Sperm Whale: the largest of all toothed whales and is the largest toothed animal alive, measuring up to 18metres (60ft) long..

don't ask me why it's name sperm whale...
here's a pic..

2007-04-14T22:49:00.000+08:00

13.04.07

oh my.. it's black friday!! careful for those of you who are superstitious.. haha.. anyway it was also international friendship day.. i had to wear batik and bear the indonesian flag in front of the school.. haha.. for the performance part, the indonesians sang "indonesia raya", our national anthem. some of the singaporeans laughed and i don't know why.. (bloody hell very funny meh? dun make me laugh at your majulah singapura arh) anyway normal lessons after that.. don't know why after recess i was so damn tired felt like sleeping.. haha.. then after school had a short meeting with the sl excom and mr. chan.. it was raining so heavily, so i stayed in school until 4pm, after which steph, sultan, yoko, trecia and me went to eat at henderson market.. later, melisa, shermin and pohgek joined us. went home.. zzz until about 8pm.. went out with emily to settlers' cafe (a board game cafe) at around 10.30pm. played some ridiculous yet fun games.. haha.. only reach back home at 2.30am.. dotz.. haha

to anonymous: goodness gracious, u just don't know when to stop following people around arh, even though they somehow express their dislike towards you.

to anonymous2: feel very guilty.. sorry.. cant explain much

2007-04-12T21:50:00.000+08:00

12.04.07

had usual lesson.. did another type of titration for the first 2 period (chemistry). had emaths test e nx period.. hm.. quite a simple transformation test this time.. haha.. anyway, after recess had physics practical.. wasn't that bad, understand what we were supposed to do.. then had english for the last period.. after school, intended to go for lunch with sultan, linqian, yoko and zheng yi. but had to be "dragged" into the ava by mr. chan lol.. stayed for the shyty rehearsal until 4pm before joining them back at kfc.. had lunch then went home.. for dinner, met up with mel and beng at henderson market for stingray and sotong!! lol!

to student leaders' executive committee: thanks for handing in the questions on time. really appreciate it. tomorrow we will be meeting up to discuss about them, so please be present. and the interviews for team captain will be on 3 sessions, monday(18/3), wednesday(20/3) and friday (22/3)

2007-04-11T22:35:00.000+08:00

11.04.07

woke up on time today.. had more than enough sleep yesterday.. haha.. anyway had meeting with the yr3 prefects to inform them about their duties on friday yr3 pta meetings.. then had normal lessons.. had physics tests.. rather a simple one.. and due to shortage of time mr. lim decided to let us do 2 out of 4 qns in section a.. (actually can do all one lar LOL :P) anyway, expecting good marks.. haha.. had a rushed bio practical as the last period was taken for another assembly for the inter-team debate finals for the yr3s that was postponed from yesterday. the debate was funny and engaging man.. haha.. but somehow i thought the judges were quite bias.. anyway the winner was 3i. had student leader meeting afterwards.. and 70% of the student leaders' executive committee was formed with the heads of uniformed groups, clubs, sports, and performing arts. (along with their 2ic) went to have lunch with mr. chan at henderson market before coming back at 3.30pm for amaths. finished at around 5pm.. went back home and had dinner... zzz... studied emaths...

to student leaders' executive committee: congratulations on your new appointments! hope to have your co-operation throughout the year so that the student leaders' body will be able to strive!! please hand-in the assigned work just now to me by tomorrow (12/4), 01.30pm okay? thank you

to mr. chan: sorry for not being able to make it for the run, but don't fret i will make sure to come to the campfire.

to anonymous: hm.. you looked so down after amaths today.. cheer up!! and hope you enjoyed the dim sum!! :P

2007-04-10T20:54:00.000+08:00

my new crumpler bag!!! the western lawn!!! :DDDD

woohoo.. so damn bloody happy haha :D
the bag costs $95....
added the shoulder pad costs $26...

$95 + $26 = $121... LOL!!
damn exp.. but very proud of it.. hehe.. quite a good buy in the sense that i don't think it's heavy even after i stuffed quite a lot of things inside.. and the shoulder pad very comfy.. lol

2007-04-10T20:43:00.000+08:00

10.04.07

went to school.. had normal lesson.. today paid full attention to all lessons.. hehe.. it's a new beginning.. physics test was cancelled, because the printing lady wasn't around and lcb couldn't get the test paper printed.. so postponed to tomorrow. yay! watched video clips about spelling bee in el lesson. then had an assembly at 1.30pm.. damn the spelling bee competition turn out chaotic but funny man.. one of the stupidest thing that happen..

mc: "please spell scrutinize"

f: "s-c-r-u-t-i-n-i-... in american or british spelling?"

mc: ".. in japanese"

(ROFL!!!)

f: ".. not funny"

(OMG!!! LMAO!!!)

anyway, the spelling bee ended quite late so the debate part is postponed to tomorrow. went to eat mos with riyanti.. walked around tiong and went home... zzz until 6.30pm before preparing for physics again tomorrow.. haha..

to anonymous: i thought i did turn back... paiseh...

2007-04-10T20:23:00.000+08:00

raising shell in 2007

cast: (voices)

chris evans as casey jones
sarah michelle gellar as april o'neil
mako as master splinter
kevin smith as diner
patrick stewart as max winters
mitchell whitfield as donatello
james arnold taylor as leonardo
mikey kelley as michelangelo
nolan north as raphael

plot:
leonardo went away for a "training" trip to be a better leader, during his absence, the turtles had also been absent for crime fighting... except for raphael who disguised himself as a vigilante called nightwatcher. during this period, max winters had set out to gather his "generals" and undo a curse which had befallen them and made them immortal. while leonardo made his return, the turtles then had some problem with teamwork.. the story continues on how they recover their brotherhood and teamwork as well as to stop winters' generals who would betray winters..

overall:
9/10. i gave it such a high rating because i enjoy the show and its meanings. not to mention the awesome cg animation. cool man.. turtle rocks (leonardo especially) :P

to anonymous: in case you don't know, unity is important, if just because of the recent happenings and you think we are falling apart, you are wrong and weak. brotherhood doesn't break just like that

2007-04-09T21:17:00.000+08:00

08.04.07

three words...

stuck studying physics..

:P

2007-04-09T21:10:00.000+08:00

07.04.07

hm.. had physics extra lesson today.. met up w sultan to have lunch in vivo.. then went for the lesson.. after lesson we had to wait for trecia for like 1hr+ (i think she had some stomachache problem) lol.. went to eat kfc w sultan, beng, jane, trecia, lin qian, yoko, shermin and melissa afterwards.. reach back home at 6.30pm... join emily at 8+pm for dinner, before going for a k-ok session.. lol damn tired lar.. by the time we reach back hm aleady 3.30am.. ZZZZ...

to anonymous: today u seemed very sad.. but i don't know what happened.. so didn't dare to ask..

to switheart: haiz.. don't know what you're thinking... sorry..

2007-04-06T21:42:00.000+08:00

it just dawned upon me..
how painful it can be..
when a person that you like actually asked you to accompany him/her to buy stuffs for someone that they like who is not you..
yet..
a person that i know willingly went to accompany him/her to buy his/her beloved's birthday present..
i really don't know how to console that friend of mine.. just hope time will heal...

the heart is so fragile.. yet.. it can be sticked properly together again just like that? is that it?
humans are so strange.. they can be happy yet heartbroken at the same time...

2007-04-06T21:40:00.000+08:00

06.04.07

the 9th.. and also the 10th for them... the only way i can describe today is... busy, sad, angry, heartbroken, pain, boring... yet happy.. i don't know myself nowadays...

to switheart: soorry.. hope we can catch movie another day.. :(...

2007-04-06T21:35:00.000+08:00

05.04.07

damn.. mr. mui never come today.. so have to email the new proposal for the sl excom.. anyway have the usual normal school day.. after school had chemistry test at 2pm, followed by mr. chan's physics' test after that.. omigod.. god 2/25!!!! haha.. reason was i didn't prepare and i didn't understand lots of what lcb is teaching.. after that had some kind of lesson of mr. chan.. quickly grasp the fact and understood stuffs.. man.. went to eat mcd for lunch with sultan and angeline afterwards.. went back home.. n accompanied my cousin for dinner at vivo.. before coming back at around 10pm... slept quite late tonight.. haha.. tomorrow good friday.. so no rush

to anonymous: by now i realised things are worse than what i thought it was.. i really you should just forget him...

to angeline: thanks for the pacs strap.. really appreciate it.. haha.. though i still have a burning question...

to black: cheer up.. it's not as if it's your fault that the result of syf turn out that way.. chill...

2007-04-06T21:28:00.000+08:00

04.04.07

by now i have finished my proposal for the student leaders' executive committee.. but was almost late in the morning.. god damn.. woke up at 7am!!! haha.. anyway had lesson, during recess met up with mr. chan to talk about the proposal. was quite happy and relieved that he actually said there was no big problem with it except for the election part. so nearing end of school i asked mr. phua for suggestions and he told me one good way of electing the committee. before the student leader meeting i brought that up to mr. chan and he said it was good. so during the student leader meeting, (attendance was horrible) discussed about the year 4/5 camp before going on to talk about the executive committee, today the head of ug was selected, congrats to martin.. haha.. anyway after that had amaths lesson. upon finishing lesson zheng yi, zhao peng, carmel and me waited for mr. chan as we've agreed to go for a run. decided to run at pearl's bank and before we know it, we were thrown into fitness hell haha.. had rigorous arm training man.. after the training, went to chinatown temporary market to chit chat and relax before mr. chan sent us home..

to carmel: don't worry, it's no big deal to lose it...

to mr. chan: many thanks to you today.. lol.. thanks for the training, drinks, as well as transport :P

to zheng yi and zhao peng and the rest of 4f: good luck for the 2.4km run tomorrow!!!

to anonymous: sorry to hide it.. :(

2007-04-06T21:20:00.000+08:00

03.04.07

tuesday.. had a normal day.. no unusual stuff happened today.. though was seriously damn pissed with some people at 1.30 pm.. anyway had meeting with mr. low, mdm. zahara and ms. asnur along with all the yr 4 and 5 student leaders about the year 4 camp. i also don't know what are they doing during the discussion.. it was a complete failure from my point of view.. anyway after school i hang out in class, waited with sher min for trecia (she was doing her physics workbook) then went back.. amazingly when i reach home, it was about 5pm already.. within half an hour, got a call from beng.. went to eat at carls' jr. with her and cheryl after their training.. went back home and finished up the proposal for the sl excom.. then something happened..

to anonymous: cheer up.. remember your friends around you, you can always lean on them for support.. :)

to anonymous2: damn you, don't talk to me before you re-alter your skirt and pull your socks up everyday you b!@#$

2007-04-06T21:09:00.000+08:00

02.04.07

got my head prefect badge today.. and zheng yi got his "assistant head prefect" badge.. haha.. the day went normal.. had pe.. ran for 2 rounds before playing soccer.. after school waited for mr. chan until 3.15pm.. was so stressed that he's gonna talk to me.. haha.. anyway we went to subway and sat down to talk for about 4 hours.. he treated me too.. haha.. went to tbp kfc to have my dinner before going home.. at home worked out the student leaders' executive committee proposal, aar for the sli as well as th results of prefects' interview.. zzz..

the head prefect..

to mr. chan: thanks for the "teaching session" today. i have understand alot more now than what i thought.. and hope you understand me more too, 'cos i think you have been having misconceptions about me right? haha.. thanks for the subway meal as well.

to year 1 prefects'-to-be: the excom had discussed who's in and out, but we have to wait for mr. mui's approval first.. so be patient and we will be meeting you guys asap to release the result, keep your finger's crossed!! :P

2007-04-06T00:36:00.000+08:00

is it a curse?

cast:

jim carrey as walter sparrow/fingerling
virginia madsen as agatha sparrow/fabrizia
logan lerman as robin sparrow
danny huston as isaac french/dr. miles phoenix
lynn collins as suicide blonde/mrs. dobkins/young fingerling's mother

plot:
on his birthday, walter (carrey) got a book entitled "the number 23" as a gift from his wife. soon after he read the first few chapters, he got obsessed with it. immediately after, he realized how similar the main character, fingerling's life story as his. and he began associating every aspects of his life with the number 23... what shook him most was that he was experiencing the same thing as what is described in the book. he then concluded that the number was cursed.. so he went out to search for topsy kreet.. the author of the book.. however after being found, he killed himself.. there was no hint left... or was there??

overall:
8/10
normal story. the interesting thing about this movie is the link of number 23 to virtually almost everything. from birthday, car license plate, colour to age.. sometimes its quite cool, but lame at the same time... but i will never forget this day. the 2nd one.. happy :D

2007-04-01T23:04:00.000+08:00

01.04.07

april's fool.. went out for breakfast... watch the number 23.. went gwc to study.. went bugis for dinner @ seoul garden.. come back home...................

to anonymous: thank you..