over these few years i have live in singapore i have changed a lot a lot a lot... hrm.. but this year bring out the most change in me.. dunno whether is it for the better or for the worse.. true enough i am now the leaders or the leaders in gan eng seng.. but at what cost? I have lost so many (uncountable) friends.. and to wad cause? sometimes i ask myself if it’s worth it..

“you’ve put to much time into SL, that you neglected your friends” said someone to me… another person said, “you are turning into THAT person (i dun wanna mention who)”.. all these sentences made me feel very very very very depressed.. furthermore adding with all the stress the school’s teachers are giving me.. i carry so much burden on my shoulder.. sometimes i even feel like giving up my posts when discouraging words like this reach my ears…

i have put so much into student leadership that it changes my mindset drastically.. im beginning to think like someone else, not a typical teenager nowadays.. why am i having all these thoughts? my “guide” told me that im growing and beginning to see that the world isn’t that pretty, that i will meet people whom are hard to work with. i accepted those words, telling myself, that i can only rely on myself for everything that i do. when something goes wrong, i only have myself to blame.

yesterday i did something which i have never done before.. i guess those in 4is know what i’m talking about, some of you told me that im abusing my power, yet another person told me that it was the only right way to go. i told myself not to take sides with either one, and i have come with a conclusion, if only by doing so can i move 4i, then i will, i dont care how u all will hate me, its just too unfortunate that you are in the same class with me.

my last wish for 4Is, prelims are just around the corners, O’s are just following up.. so let’s work together towards those flying colours, no matter how much you all wanna deny the fact that we are regarded as the best class by many teachers, we are still one in the eyes of the teachers, that’s why i think we CANNOT LET THEM AND OURSELVES DOWN.. sometimes its sad to think that in about 3-4 months we will be going our separate ways, as for myself i will be going temasek.. so i really hope you guys will treasure the time we have together.. listen up to our team and deputy team captain, follow the way they will be showing you all, and no matter what happens we will reach that end line together, faster than the rest!!! ALL THE WAY 4IS!!!!