-i am hollow within-: March 2008
March 30, 2008
「 the shadow.the darkness. 14:15 」

i love you.. i really do... you know how hurtful it was when i see that phrase? "i forgot how to love?" why are we becoming like this.. is it so difficult to even tell each other truth? about our lives? why always hide our feelings when bottling it up will make things worse? i don't want things to turn out this way... but obviously we are not working together.. why can't we? why do you give up on things so easily? even me? all you can say is that you are unreasonable? but haven't you heard the word "change"? before?

maybe i don't give the feeling that i'm trying to change.. but i did change a lot.. was it so hard to see the change in me? i gave you my words then when i go on to jc, i will stay faithful, but did you bother about the promise that i made? you still feel insecure anyway... you say it's ok, i can concentrate in my council stuff first, but in the end, "i am not there for you.."

when you see this post, you may straight away realise that it's directed to you, but what will your respond be? will it be, "oh no everything's my fault.." and you get all upset with it, or will you respond with a positive attitude and try to change things TOGETHER with me?.. it's your choice..

i wanna be with you, i wanna be happy, and most importantly i want you to be happy. it does not mean that just because you are in poly, you are nothing.. you are my everything and my only one.. start thinking optimistic will you?

i know this post is going to sound so hostile on you.. but i really don't know what to do.. i just want us to work together...

P.S. I Love You