-i am hollow within-: April 2008
April 14, 2008
「 the shadow.the darkness. 21:55 」

things in the world.. there is always two sides to things.. but unfortunately people dun always see the two sides.. why then there is always the two sides?? haha.. why is there always positive AND negative? why is there always good AND bad? hrm...

at first people thought "it" was very good, it's like almost impossible to have that kind of achievement.. then only i realize how outside people are viewing "it" in a negative perspective... people say how can "it" change so much only over a year???

haha... although i still feel empty whenever i go to school.. without knowing it, i'm already getting very attached to this place called TJC... haha...



April 08, 2008
「 the shadow.the darkness. 23:00 」

...sands...

...hollow...

...realization?...

...enlightenment?...

...hollow...

...sorrow...

...confusion...

I have lost the meaning of life for now... when will I find it again? i lost something dearly.. something that cannot be replaced... is this it?... will i be able to continue?

the mind of a hollow sand drop..................







April 02, 2008
「 the shadow.the darkness. 22:08 」

.. last day of 32nd TJC SC nominees...

today's the last day of nomination for sc at tjc.. hrm.. it has been at least one month since i was first thrown into the seriousness of nomination.. haha.. still remember all the scoldings that we got on our first general meeting with the 31st.. since then, i believe that my fellow nominees and i have grown and come along way.. all about being united, all for one, one for all.., care for others, being selfless and keeping a lookout for one another... the aim for perfect attire during morning meetups.. all these really bring up memories... and these days come to and end today.. it is finally the results that we have been waiting for since we started our crazy campaigns..

today's going to be a happy day.. and a sad day.. it's a happy day for us who got through the nomination and finally be a part of the 32nd students' council as elects.. it's a sad day for those of us who couldnot.. it is also a sad day.. as we will part as nominees, and won't be addresed as one such group of nominees anymore.. the last day of the 32nd students' council nominees...

all i wanna say to close this post is.. it has been a hell of a ride will all of you nominees.. to most of you, it is the beginning of another journey for us as elects.. we shall look forward to council camp and also investiture.. whereas to the rest of you.. remember these memories as the 32nd students' council nominees.. you shall not be forgotten, at least, by me.. thank you and good luck for your future endeavors.. you guys and gals still can go on for other leadership posts in the college, and rest assured we will be supporting all of you... take care...



April 01, 2008
「 the shadow.the darkness. 23:06 」

I love you... I wanna be there for you.. but why can't you just take things optimistically?.. I wanna be as patient as I can be.. I really want.. I know you don't like me doing lots of things including what I just asked you tonight.. but why can't you voice out? because it's not going to change things?... I'm torn.. I'm confused... I'm messed up.. but you will always still be in my heart...