-i am hollow within-
August 24, 2007
「 the shadow.the darkness. 23:22 」

you were the other best friend that i had...
yet.. i don't know what's happening to us..
to you, the way we talk maybe the usual way we talked..
but to me.. the way you talked have changed.. or is it really i changed to such a degree that i cannot take ur words anymore? so who's fault is it? why do i have the feeling from ur respond that ur blaming everything on me? maybe when you see this, you will say "i didn't mean it that way, but if u think that way, there's nothing i can do, so be it"..
do you know how hurtful this phrase can be?

to me, you were one of the very few who can understand me very well, the support you gave me during the SL camp was tremendous.. you stood by all my nonsensical, unreasonable reasonings last year and earlier this year, although i never show it, i appreciate the God for giving me such a friend.. but why do all of this have to change? is it worth it to just give up of friendship cause of this "thing"? true at this point of time a lot of people, and maybe including you will think that i am the one who is abandoning friendship for the "thing" but you all just don't understand how lonely it can be...

all that i wanna say is.. thank you for everything you have done for me, i believe that all of this change began with me, thus most of it is my fault, yet i don't think it's 100% my fault, if i can say i would tell you now that 5% is your fault, many things you have done just hurt me that much.. but maybe i'm not in the right position to say anything now... well whatever it is i wish for you a successful life and happy one ahead, at the very least you still have a lot of friend... good luck my best friend....

in the heart, best friend will always be one, yet in reality, everything changes....