-i am hollow within-
May 24, 2008
「 the shadow.the darkness. 21:34 」

again and again.. things happen... why is it always like this? i thought yesterday was a super good day... turns out i screw things up again... why am i such a failure as a friend? as a human? as a social being?... its like im a jynx always in their lives.. make their days lousier.. bring them to the lowest of their mood.. i hate it.. i hate myself.. for making history repeat again and again...

maybe i really should have no friends at all.. i dun even know how to handle my own life... much less bringing in people to my miserable life.. my friends are always there for me.. but will i ever be there for them? i always think things screw up cos its u, u, u, u and ur fault.. but i always never think back.. maybe until now, i always think of friends as just another tools...........................................

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